Sunday Serenity

 

 

It is perfectly okay to write garbage—as long as you edit brilliantly.
– C. J. Cherryh

 

Found these through Thrift Books. Old beloved books I’d lost years ago. So, what are you reading this week?

 

Be Kind to one another. The world needs more kindness. ~NPhoenix

 

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December??

 

 

What happened to the year? 0.o

So here’s a bit of a yearly roundup.

Some things I’ve learned about me, I have to call off for the summer. There’s no getting around it, I just don’t do summers. I have no concentration, little motivation, and my demons are loudest through June and July. I’m really not able to get back to me until about september. I have to accept that I just don’t get anything writing wise done.

I jump the gun, a lot. I over plan then stress, then when I fail to reach my ridiculousgoals, I beat myself up. It’s self sabotaging, I get that. So I’m scaling things down a bit. BP’s edits got interrupted and I’m still trying to catch up. If you’re interested in checking out BP, I’m posting it, chapter by chapter over on the Patreon. The prologue and first chapter are free, fwiw.

The Patreon: Well, I’m working on making some changes to the goodies. I’m also considering posting other things, scenes, snippets, and tidbits from other stories, still wishy washy about that atm.

Wattpad: Did you know I still have the Wattpad? And E1 is still up? I put it back up here and Wattpad a few months ago, right before getting used as a landing pad for family. Long story, you really don’t want to know LOL. I’m also debating putting up other, free stuff over there. Let me know if there’s something you want to see more of.

I hope you all have a great holiday season, for whatever you celebrate.

Be Kind to one another!
~NPhoenix

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Sunday Serenity

I don’t usually do Black Friday stuff, but my son & daughter and their friend DID. (You can see their friend standing there). So my son decided he was going to buy this teddy bear from wallyworld. He informed me that it is my grandson. I’m not sure if I should be amused or not, LOL!

 

 

I hope you all had a relaxing Thanksgiving. Be kind to one another, cherish your family (whether it is blood or chosen family fwiw).

 

~NPhoenix

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October

Some things;

 

  • My stepson and his gf and their children stayed with us for a few months this summer.
  • I will never subject myself to that again. Seriously, that was a BAD idea.
  • Trying to get a handle on my health. Several issues have been neglected and have come to a head. I’m now getting them handled, but years of self neglect are taking their toll.
  • all of this has, of course, impacted my creative side. June and July are always bad months, with everything else, I was lucky I got anything done.

 

One of these days I need to sit down and do a series on Depression, Bipolar and Creativity. But at the moment I just don’t have the energy.

 

I am absolutely heartbroken over the events the other night in Las Vegas. When I was a kid, my grandfather would take me fossil hunting in the mountains around Vegas. They lived there for several years and we’d drive from San Diego to Las Vegas about once a month to visit. While I never called it home, it holds a special place in my heart. FWIW, the few folks I know personally who live there have all reported that they’re safe and sound.

On top of the horrors of the suffering in Puerto Rico and this incompetent administration’s response. On top of Houston, and the kids being here… I’m emotionally exhausted.

 

Writing:

So, easing back into writing. My brain is started to think in terms of stories again. I’m hoping it’s not a temporary thing.

One step at a time. I may have taken a hiatus, but it doesn’t mean I’m gone for good, or no longer writing or planning on publishing new stuff. I’m here, and I’m going to be around for a very long time, I can promise you that. It’s just a matter of figuring out what works best for me. Fun stuff.

 

I hope you are all doing well. Tonight I’m going to take a long bubble bath and read a book. And try to continue getting on with being ME.

Self care is important. Self care is vital to our mental health. There is nothing wrong, at all, with turning off social media, with getting back to the cosey nights reading a good book in the bath. Don’t neglect yourselves. Find what helps you cope in these difficult times and don’t let anyone or anything convince you, you shouldn’t do it.

Happy October folks. Take care. And please, be kind to each other.

~NPhoenix

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Happy August

I saw this on my facebook feed and thought it would be a great Sunday Serenity. I hope you all are having a peaceful summer.

 

There are changes coming, good changes. Thank you for hanging in there with me.

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Sunday Serenity

 

 

It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.

Aristotle

 

Sometimes it’s hard to remember that a new day always comes, that things will get better. Don’t lose hope. The dawn is just around the corner.

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oops

So I forgot to schedule the payment for the domain and the site was *poof* for a bit. Obviously I got it straightened out, but there was that moment of sheer ‘OH FUCK!’ that had me in a near panic when I realized what happened.

This is another way of saying June is not ever a good month.

From now on I think I’ll be shutting down for the summer. With kids* and things, I’m just too busy.

But back to school is just around the corner. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

 

Writing;

I have memory issues, I won’t lie. I’m going to be bringing it up to the doctor at my next appointment. I went to schedule stuff for june, and… well I remember scheduling stuff. over at the patreon and here. I apparently didn’t. There aren’t drafts saved in the back office either here or patreon so I think I’m mis-remembering things.

This is kinda scary fwiw. it could be stress induced and up until this past week it’s been very stressful. Mind you there’s still stress stuff, but it’s not as severe/world is ending sorta stress. Or it could be some genuine issues. Either way my writing has ground to a halt as summer has progressed.

I’m working on getting caught up with stuff.

Bear with me.

 

Anywho, I hope you are all having a good summer. Mine has been good so far, stress aside.

 

~NPhoenix

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It’s…. june?

Ok, so summers are never good for me. I get distracted and our schedule gets all screwy. I should just hang a OUT TO LUNCH sign on the blog until the kids go back to school.

I’ve been on a bit of a gaming binge again, I don’t seem to have the brain power for much more, which tells me that my subconscious is working on something.

Not sure what.

The worst part? I thought I’d scheduled enough chapters on the patreon to go through july. I forgot!     **facepalms**

I feel horrid about forgetting. So for the weekend and next week the plan, is to finish scheduling stuff. I apologize again. But then again, it’s summer, and if you’ve followed me for any amount of time, plans go out the window during the summer. I’ll try to get to work on it though.

I hope your summer is treating you well. Mine is good, just lazy.

 

 

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Happy Mothers Day 

Happy Mother’s Day!

Whether your kids are two-legged, four-legged, or no-legged,
fuzzy, feathery, scaley, or skin;
if your darlings are with you
or gazing down from above,
if you’re doing the job of both parents
or have a partner in crime,
Happy Mother’s Day.
I hope it’s a day full of peace and being appreciated.

~NPhoenix

Copyright ©2017 by Necia Phoenix
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Some more things

Writing:

The Bastard Prince plods on. I love this story so much I can barely contain my excitement. So close to being done! Sometimes I get this feeling of urgency. I have so many story ideas, I want to get them finished and published so I can get to the NEXT story. Sometimes I worry that I won’t get them done in my lifetime.

 

Elemental Truth I find it interesting and weird that both with E1 and BP I stalled around the part where things start to blow up in people’s faces (sieges and battles and such). Both storylines are complex, both storylines have a lot to them, and both stalled about 30 chapters in. I wonder why…  Anyways, E1 is live both here and over at wattpad for those who prefer that setup better.

 

Politics: (this is a ramble, puking my thoughts on the screen.)

I’ve tried to stay out of politics here, but damnit I can’t stay quiet. I’m horrified. Embarrassed. Outraged by this mockery of a president that has defiled the white house. There’s a meme over on facebook that shows Patrick Stewart as Captain Picard (my hero!) with the caption of Damage Report!  The note by the OP was that this was how they felt every morning when they looked at the news.

That’s how I feel. I’m afraid to say ‘What ELSE could he do to embarrass us?’ because I swear I feel like the great walking bad-tan is listening just so he can turn to his buddy Pence and say; hold my beer!

*takes a deep breath*

When did hate become acceptable? What has happened to my country? This isn’t who we are. Please, those of you who are from other parts of the world, please believe me when I say We’re better than this. I just wish my fellow countrymen, so blinded by hate and fear, would realize the damage they’re doing to us all.

And then the thought crossed my mind, late 90s early 2000’s there started a trend; reality TV. And the retirees suddenly started watching these horrid reality shows. Is it any wonder that they would then, turn around and elect a reality TV ‘star’? TV as I knew it growing up, doesn’t exist anymore. With the onset of faux news, and the war mongering, and the fear mongering following 9/11 followed by the insane hell bent efforts to obstruct and hate on our Nation’s first black president, is there really any wonder that the putrid, puss-filled, ignorant cheeto managed to win the election? They’d been groomed for a decade or more to go for the loud obnoxious one. And don’t even get me started on the ties with Russia*.

Sally Yates investigates cheeto.
Gets fired.

Preet Bharara investigates cheeto.
Gets fired.

James Comey investigates cheeto.
Gets fired.

 

Gee, see a pattern here?

I’m so tired of this. I’m tired of seeing our nation being dragged through the muck behind a fool who knows nothing. I’m tired of the incompetence of this administration. The dimwits were so hell bent on getting into office by any means necessary, they forgot about things like organizational skills, planning etc… It’s exhausting. I want to go to sleep for a while.  But we can’t back down. We have to stay ‘woke’. We have to resist. Our democracy, our nation is on the line.

 

And this is what spews from my brain at 1am as I’m trying to finish an edit and tell the Ice Dragons to stfu so I can finish the stories leading to theirs.

Anywho. I’ve got things to do in the morning, I’ve got scenes to finish, books to plot, and laundry. Lots of laundry to do. So I’ll leave you with this, one of my favorite songs covered by one of my favorite groups.

Peace can’t be just an obscure idea. We can get there. I know we can.

Be kind to each other. ~ N.Phoenix

 

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Writing, Life, Politics, & Mental Health

This week has been busy, writing wise. Something in my head has clicked. I’ve been writing. Averaging 10 to 15 pages a day (2500 words or more). Scenes that have stumped me over the years have become clearer than ever and I’ve been scrambling to keep up with the ideas, scenes, and such. I’m starting to feel more like Me than I have in a long time. And I’m writing. And finishing.

Currently BP is sitting at just under 80k. I’m so very close to calling this completely DONE I can almost taste it LOL. Once it’s done, it’ll go off to the Beta readers, and I’ll schedule the rest of it over at the Patreon . And then I’ll re-focus on E1.

E1 is back up (I think I mentioned it last week, I don’t remember) and I’ll tackle the final edits and gap filling and get IT scheduled as soon as BP is firmly off the ‘to finish’ list.

Once those are done, well I’ve got a stack of unfinished things to finish finishing. >.>

So, with this resurgence in writing, it might seem that life has calmed down. Nope, it hasn’t. In fact on the 25th my 11 year old broke his pinky knuckle playing toss the football while he and a friend waited for the buss. I spent that evening at the ER and the following day trying to find an Orthopedic Surgeon. The 27th was spent in Dr’s offices, trying to determine WHAT to do (brace or cast. We opted for a cast fwiw).

Yet I’ve been pushing out words. Maybe only a few hundred, but still. Writing is something I love. And something that has been pushed aside. And that leads me to the cold hard truth about Mental Illness. Not only does it suck, it also causes a major disruption in a person’s life. And sometimes medication really is the best answer to the chemical imbalance in the brain that results in depression, mood swings, bi-polar and a list of other brain affected ailments.

About three weeks ago I was finally able to get back on my medication that helps with my issues. The fact the medication is doing its job, balancing out the chemical imbalance in my brain, is reflected in the fact that, holy shit, I can WRITE again. My focus isn’t perfect, but it’s a hell of a lot better than it’s been.

Once upon a time, I used to average at 2 – 3k a day. Or between 8 and 10 pages a day.

I’ve been doing that again. And it is a wonderful feeling to be able to get back to being ME.

Seriously, if you’re going to spout off those ‘the only therapy/medication I need is a walk through the woods’ you can just go kiss my ass. Sorry, that doesn’t work for everyone. If it did, I’d never have these issues.

**clears throat**

ANYWAYS.

I’ve been doing more reading, and surprisingly it’s not as much fiction as one would think. I got several of Dean Wesley Smith‘s books, and Kristine Kathryn Rusch‘s books and power read through them. Those have gone a long way it helping me find my writing footing again. Thanks Dean & Kris. In rereading their blogs I stumbled across the Writing Story Bundle over here (more about what the Story Bundle is over here). Part of the bundle includes one of Dean’s online lecture series on the Master Plot Formula. I already got the Writing as an Investment lecture series and WOW talk about eye opening. Even the hubs (not a reader OR writer) sat and listened to in, nodding his way through. So I knew the Master Plot Formula lectures would be as educational.

I was right (I started to type ‘write’ **snickers**)  Folks I would HIGHLY recommend investing in those two lecture series, at the very least do the Story Bundle and you get the one as part of the bundle (there are some really GOOD books in that bundle too). As a writer, in this day and age, educating yourself with the ins and outs of how the business works is a must. You can’t expect do be around for any length of time without understanding how it breaks down.

Changing one’s perspective and mindset is not easy. Especially when you’re fighting long held dreams. Especially when those dreams are founded on myth and not reality. I’ve re-connected with my writing/creative brain, due to a combo of the correct meds and changing how I look at writing.

The books I got which helped (not in the story bundle, I’m still working my way through those) were:

Dean’s books;

Killing the Top Ten Sacred Cows of Publishing
Killing the Top Ten Sacred Cows of Indi Publishing
Heinlein’s Rules: Five Simple Buisness Rules for Writing
How to Write Fiction Sales Copy  (I’m still reading on this one)
Think Like a Publisher

Kris’s Book

The Pursuit of Perfection (DUDES READ THIS)

Those were my birthday presents to myself.

 

Lets see there was something else writing wise I was going to mention but I forgot. I’ll remember later.

 

I was going to vent about politics, but I don’t have the heart to. What I will say it we are not done resisting and it’s going to be a long four years.

 

I think that just about wraps it up. OH I’ve deleted my livejournals. I’m over at Dreamwidth now (actually just dusted it off a bit) but I’m really bad about posting over there. https://necia-phoenix.dreamwidth.org/  Now it’s time to get back to writing.

I do have an FB and a twitter fwiw.

I hope you all have a wonderful peaceful weekend.

Please be kind to each other. ~ N.Phoenix

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