I’m challenging myself to more writing. Of blog posts, of fiction. I’ve let other things clog me tremendously and that’s just not good. So Lets see if I can get a streak going. Blog post a day. Story a week. Flash friday. Am I trying to hard? Maybe. But that’s okay. If it means I get words…
So today; Lawn got mowed, a swimmingpool got set up. I got some very bad news about family members in a bad crash.
I was going to write more on this blog but I was caught up making phone calls and finding out what had happened. Happy thoughts to my SIL please.
I’ve drifted to a different social media platform called MeWe which is (imo) ten times better (and safer) that FB. In doing so I’ve found a few writer groups that are very active and it’s kicked my brain into gear.
This is a good thing. I think I was stagnant. New people, new writers to talk to seems to be helping.
The patreon is still there, but I haven’t touched it in a while, I’m still on the fence about yanking it down. I keep thinking I need to but… but… I dunno leaving it up, yanking it down, neither option seems to be the right answer.
My wattpad is still active too. I was thinking about moving things over it to, I’ve got most of E1 on it and that seems to be what has captured my imagination right now.
I’ve got a lot of plans but I’m tackling things one thing at a time instead of my usual multitasking till I burn method.
Anyways, I hope all y’all are doing well. Take it easy all
So there is this kerfluffle, Patreon did a dick move and people are bailing. Lots of people are angry, hurt, sad and ready to say fuck it and go elseware. I’ve lost a couple patrons, and while I’m sad to see them go I 100% get why, and no I’m not mad or anything.
So where do *I* stand on this? My little patreon page hasn’t generated much more than coffee money, but then over the past year I’ve been in one of the darkest depressions I’ve had in a long time, and the content hasn’t been very reliable. That’s my fault, no one else’s.
But I can’t bring myself to bail from Patreon just yet,
I understand why people are angry, seriously I’d rather take the hit than making my patrons take it. I do wish the creators had been consulted ahead of time. but this was a business decision, and artists aren’t often considered business types.
I’ve come across three posts that solidified my decision not to bail.
I’ve been sick, dealing with sick kids and hubs and I come back to BS.
So I see that Patreon dropped a big FU bomb to the people supporting creators under the guise of helping the creators. I don’t like the idea of my supporters, the few I have, being exploited.
I’m still looking into it, seeing as pretty much everyone supporting me is at the $1 level, I want to look into how this will affect you.
I suspect there is going to be a mass exodus of creators from the patreon. I have been wondering what to do about this patreon page, and I think I’ve just had the decision made for me.
I am not a morning person, but this morning, at the crack of…. no before the sun was even up, I had an errand to run.
I have to admit i love it early in the morning, when no one else is about and it’s so quiet.
Today was busy, this week I’ve spent in & out of the dr’s office with three kids, and myself, taking care of things, treating strep throat (two kids have strep and one has bronchitis) and just being mom.
Some people have this idea that writers lead these glamorous lives, that they sit around drinking champagne while writing on laptops hanging over bubble baths (my sil described this and I just laughed).
Believe it or not, for many of us, we’re just people who have these ideas and stories in their heads. Today I ended up cuddling my sick 9 year old while he coughed and watched his favorite shows on netflix. Right now that kid and the others are watching christmas air bud (I think) and chilling, giving me a few min to do some freewriting and writing this up.
Tonight I’ll read a bit (I haven’t been reading much) and maybe write. This weekend I’ve got some cleanup in the basement to do, and hopefully edit and whatnot.
This, this is life. Life as a writer, life as a mom. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’m not sure exactly what I’m hoping to accomplish here, except to highlight the fact that writers, like everyone else, have things happening in their lives. It’s not all champagne and bubble baths. Though I could totally go for a book and a bubble bath right now…
Be kind to each other, lift each other up, don’t drag each other down.
Some things I’ve learned about me, I have to call off for the summer. There’s no getting around it, I just don’t do summers. I have no concentration, little motivation, and my demons are loudest through June and July. I’m really not able to get back to me until about september. I have to accept that I just don’t get anything writing wise done.
I jump the gun, a lot. I over plan then stress, then when I fail to reach my ridiculousgoals, I beat myself up. It’s self sabotaging, I get that. So I’m scaling things down a bit. BP’s edits got interrupted and I’m still trying to catch up. If you’re interested in checking out BP, I’m posting it, chapter by chapter over on the Patreon. The prologue and first chapter are free, fwiw.
The Patreon: Well, I’m working on making some changes to the goodies. I’m also considering posting other things, scenes, snippets, and tidbits from other stories, still wishy washy about that atm.
Wattpad: Did you know I still have the Wattpad? And E1 is still up? I put it back up here and Wattpad a few months ago, right before getting used as a landing pad for family. Long story, you really don’t want to know LOL. I’m also debating putting up other, free stuff over there. Let me know if there’s something you want to see more of.
I hope you all have a great holiday season, for whatever you celebrate.
I don’t usually do Black Friday stuff, but my son & daughter and their friend DID. (You can see their friend standing there). So my son decided he was going to buy this teddy bear from wallyworld. He informed me that it is my grandson. I’m not sure if I should be amused or not, LOL!
I hope you all had a relaxing Thanksgiving. Be kind to one another, cherish your family (whether it is blood or chosen family fwiw).
My stepson and his gf and their children stayed with us for a few months this summer.
I will never subject myself to that again. Seriously, that was a BAD idea.
Trying to get a handle on my health. Several issues have been neglected and have come to a head. I’m now getting them handled, but years of self neglect are taking their toll.
all of this has, of course, impacted my creative side. June and July are always bad months, with everything else, I was lucky I got anything done.
One of these days I need to sit down and do a series on Depression, Bipolar and Creativity. But at the moment I just don’t have the energy.
I am absolutely heartbroken over the events the other night in Las Vegas. When I was a kid, my grandfather would take me fossil hunting in the mountains around Vegas. They lived there for several years and we’d drive from San Diego to Las Vegas about once a month to visit. While I never called it home, it holds a special place in my heart. FWIW, the few folks I know personally who live there have all reported that they’re safe and sound.
On top of the horrors of the suffering in Puerto Rico and this incompetent administration’s response. On top of Houston, and the kids being here… I’m emotionally exhausted.
So, easing back into writing. My brain is started to think in terms of stories again. I’m hoping it’s not a temporary thing.
One step at a time. I may have taken a hiatus, but it doesn’t mean I’m gone for good, or no longer writing or planning on publishing new stuff. I’m here, and I’m going to be around for a very long time, I can promise you that. It’s just a matter of figuring out what works best for me. Fun stuff.
I hope you are all doing well. Tonight I’m going to take a long bubble bath and read a book. And try to continue getting on with being ME.
Self care is important. Self care is vital to our mental health. There is nothing wrong, at all, with turning off social media, with getting back to the cosey nights reading a good book in the bath. Don’t neglect yourselves. Find what helps you cope in these difficult times and don’t let anyone or anything convince you, you shouldn’t do it.
Happy October folks. Take care. And please, be kind to each other.