Long day

I’m a taxi driver for teenagers 😂🤦🏻‍♀️

Writing; did some minor layering in between driving around.

There are thoughts but I’m drained.

Night

NPhoenix

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A little bit

Today has been kind of hit & miss with pretty much everything. I got a little bit of housework done, I got a little bit of site updates done (I don’t care for WP’s new post editor. It’s stupid. just plain STUPID*.) and a little bit of editing/layering done. It’s late, but I’m going to try to get some words before I crash. It gets frustrating, I want to do MORE but it was just too busy.

And as I was grumbling to one of the kids about it, he pointed out, in the wisdom only a ten year old has, that a little bit goes a long way. I got more done than when I started. He had a good point. Sometimes we want to DO ALL TEH THINGS but even a little bit helps. Even if it isn’t what you expected.

Writing:  Did a bit of layering, cleaned up a few typos and, I think, filled in a minor plot hole. I’m about to work on the next chapter. Which should bring me into the homestretch.

Reading:  none, outside of filling out back to school paperwork for the kids.

Final thoughts:  the other day I did a word count tally of both E1 & BP. (BP = The Bastard Prince aka current WIP aka Zandercrack   & E1 = Elemental Truth )   Both books are in the 80ks, both I’d set goals for 100k. If I can keep a strict writing schedule (stop laughing, folks, a writer can dream, right?) I can knock out both books by Oct 1. Or at least hit 100k on both of them.

So that’s sorta my goal for now, knock both of them out, toss them at the editor and prepare for NaNo which I’m considering diving into this year.

I hope you all are having an okay week. For those of you affected by Dorian, *hugs* stay safe folks. and overall,

Be kind to one another
~NPhoenix

* I went looking for a plugin to use the old editor because the new one was so effing enragey stupid I consider it just plain borked.

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First Day of School

Today I watched my kids head off to school. This summer felt so long. I always have mixed emotions on the first day. These are my babies only… they’re not babies. They’re fast growing little humans. While I do miss them, I’m always a bit relieved. They’re kids, they talk. A lot. Sometimes the noise is just a wee bit too much lol.

Writing; just about 250 words on BP. I’m beat, so once this post is up I’m calling it a night. BP is almost done. It’s a strange and exciting feeling knowing that I can finish it within the month.

Reading; started on a project a pal sent me. So far it’s good. Beyond that I hesitate saying anything about it except there is, to my knowledge, nothing else like it anywhere.

Hope y’all had a good day.

Be Kind to each other.

~NPhoenix

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Happy Labor Day

Happy Labor Day

Lets take a moment, to remember the men (and women) who fought for workers to have a voice in company decisions. Today a lot of folks get drunk, party, bar-b-q without a clear understanding of what the foundation of this ‘holiday’ was built from.

In other news;

Monday Meanderings

Dean Wesley Smith has a series of online workshops he/his publishing company WMG Publishing offers through teachable*. I went ahead and subscribed to the weekly tips because, well why the hell not? He’s been in the business for decades, and done well, if he has tips to share, I think it’s a worthy investment. One of those tips was about resetting yourself. As he put it, if he misses a day he says reset and starts over.

As I was looking over my page and my blog I started laughing, I might not use the term ‘reset’ (I don’t really have A term, though I do think of it as ‘Reboot’) but I have been doing something like that for a long time. I might miss a day, a week, months or hell even years, but I always reboot, restart. Reset. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes I fail. Sometimes I fail spectacularly LOL, but I try to keep moving forward. I just found it amusing/ironic/neat that he’d put up a tip on that and I’d find/watch that tip as I’m doing my own ‘reset’ right now.

I went over to both the Patreon and the Wattpad pages. Debating. I haven’t been keeping up either, though I’ve put up more on Wattpad than Patreon. I’m considering what to do with them. I feel like I owe it to the wattpad followers to at least finish uploading E1. Then part of me was thinking I should just close down the Patreon and move BP over to wattpad. Not sure I care for that. Can’t really pin down why it doesn’t feel right.

Anywho, I hope you are doing well. All three of you 😉 Take it easy. Be kind to one another.
~NPhoenix

*I am not getting any kind of kickback or anything to mention DWS’s workshops. I’m just sharing info about something I find a valuable investment as an author. I would highly recommend checking out DWS’s online workshops to any serious self pubber.

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Still Alive

I hesitate saying ‘I’m back!’ because I’ve said it before and things happen. But things always happen. I’ve been focusing less on stories and writing, and more on family and health over the past year, I just haven’t had the ?will? ?spoons? to come over here.

The Website needs updating, links cleared, theme redone. The books up for sale need a bit of an overhaul. The Patreon page (which I effing forgot about) needs attention, so does the Wattpad page. My goals, my focus, all that fun stuff needs to be re-examined.

And every time I’d come over here, I felt like such a goddamn loser. I just didn’t have the mental capacity to get shit done.

So here I am. Trying not to get overwhelmed and let anxiety win. I’ll take it day by day.

Life Status; My son, who had struggled hard for a few years (which was what initially threw me for a loop and knocked me off my game back in 2014) graduated this past May. Not only did he graduate, but on walking out of HS he walked right into a Cosmetology career, flat out bought a car, and just bought his first ‘house’ (ok, mobile home) and is planning on marrying his long time gf. He’ll be 19 in a couple of months. This is the kid who, I was told by the PA justice system, was never going to graduate, and would probably spend his life in and out of jail.

This, along with juggling a kid in college and a kid adrift, and herding the younger kids towards their own futures, has left me an exhausted , though very proud, mama.

Mental Health;

Did you know that many women who were children in the 80s & 90s (and earlier) were overlooked by mental health care professionals when they exhibited ADHD and autistic behaviors? It’s quite infuriating. Especially as we have determined that my ‘bipolar’ symptoms were mis-diagnosed. Bipolar? no. I have never experienced any kind of mania. But I have a textbook case of ADHD which took me close to 16 years to get any psychologist to recognize. Now on the right meds, functioning like an actual human being and not a depressed squirrel, has gone a long way in me reclaiming me.

This has led to better organizing my brain and dudes, sorta consistent writing even.

I cannot stress enough how priceless it is to finally get the correct meds to help get your brain functioning right.

Writing:

This IS a writer page after all, and lately I haven’t really been doing much of that over the past few years. So here’s a bit of an update on the state of those things.

Elemental Truth is temporarily on hold. Mainly because Zandercrack has hijacked my brain. So I’m going with it.

The Bastard Prince this is, hands down, a heart project. Which had roared to a halt because something wasn’t right. Well last week I figured out why I was having trouble. I’m back in the saddle, working on it daily for the past week, managing to push it from the low/mid 70k to 87k. I’ve got not idea how much (wordcount wise) I’ve got left to be able to slap The End to it, but if I go by scenes…. maybe 20 to 25 scenes? Possibly 30? Maybe?

Other Projects; I’ve got a few half finished fallout fanfics (which I doubt will ever see the light of day LOL), a few fallout inspired post apoc ideas which are silently begging me to finish them. Mostly everything is focused on BP and E1.

September Goals;
~Finish BP. Like, just wrap the fucker up, get SL (book 2) scene listed (planning on using it for NaNo this year). See if my editor is going to be available and toss it her way.
~Scene list the rest of the Zander Chronicles.
~ IF there’s time left over, dust off The Fallen, write the four or five filler scenes, and decide if it’s going to go up or is going to grow into a novel.
October Goals;
~Finish E1. Like BP it’s stuck just outside the grande finale and for some crazy reason I just… stopped. Not sure if it’s some inner fear of saying good-bye to loved characters, or just overwhelmed brain can’t take any more dished out at it.
~Scene list E2. if there’s time.

The rest of 2019 Goals:
~Write. Just, get back into the habit of writing daily. Of allowing myself to be creative without guilting myself.
~I would like to put both BP AND E1 up for sale before Christmas. We’ll see how that goes.
~Be more forgiving of myself. I am my own worst critic. In recent years I have become very harsh with my inner monologue towards myself. This is not healthy and inhibits both personal happiness and my creativity. I need to be kinder to myself.

Other Thoughts.

It’s okay to take a break. It’s okay to step back and rethink things. Even if you do it over and over and over. It’s okay. It doesn’t mean you’re a failure. It means you’re actively processing your situation.

I hope you are all having a good day (whenever you read this).

Be kind to one another
~N Phoenix.

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DBP #4 2019

Words were made. Rearranged. And plot stuffs figured out.

This is more of a placeholder post tbh. There’s a post I want to write, beating around in my head, I just don’t have the energy to write it atm.

Night y’all.

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DBP #2 2019

Apparently yesterday’s post got eaten ? oops.

Writing is going, since Sunday I’ve kicked off over 8000 words on E1. I’m about to get today’s words going then plan to get some house stuff done. It’s snowing and is sposed to snow off & on all day.

Have a good one folks.

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DBP #1 2019 New Year

The first monday of the year. Happy happy joy joy.

I hope y’all had a great holiday season. Ours was busy. I’ve been writing (yay)! Slowly getting back to a routine. Baby steps. This year I’ve got some fairly simple goals;

  • Take better care of myself
  • Write and have fun writing
  • Finish.

I have some plans, but I’m going to take it slow. Not overwhelm myself like I have in the past. Baby steps.

Hope y’all are having a great new year.

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Boingy

Some things;

  • School avalanched on me. Unfortunately due to a medical issue I am on medical leave  until april.
  • slowly inching back into a writing routine. It’s been a rough year.
  • Ramping up to do nano. Not sure if I’m tackling a near done project or a new one.

Life grinds on.

Be kind to one another
~NPhoenix

 

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DBPR #8

Life; I was so caught up in going to school I forgot today (yesterday/the 13th) was our 13th wedding anniversary. ??‍♀️ my hubs didn’t. He came home (working nights) with a bouquet and his first words to me this morning was Happy Anniversary.

I got an awesome hubs.

School was awesome! I’m excited about this new direction.

Writing; not much. I did scribble some notes down about a couple things I need to double check on in E1 but it got late and 7:30am comes early.

Reading; school stuff.

Be Kind to Each Other

~NPhoenix

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DBPR #7

More of a placeholder, I lost a day rearranging and cleaning and sorting my room. Gotta love moving.

Tomorrow (later today) I start school (WEEEEEE) and I’m anxious and excited about it.

Writing: Aside from this blog, none, I was too caught up cleaning.

Be Kind to Each Other
~NPhoenix

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